Saturday, June 24, 2006

sick! sick! sick! sick! sick!

tell u something=)

after much consideration. i m proud to say that, i have nt bullied more than 2 people in my life till now :)
heehee.
i guess its becos i have been bullied before during my childhood days.
bullied not from school bt frm my cousin.
so ya.. i totally understand the feeling of being bullied.

Thats why, i have a tendency to get close to the outcasts and u know like telll dem that dey have me =)
and talk to them when they are walking alone at the back of the group or ask the rest of the group "hey! wait for her/him. dont walk too fast."

and no matter how braggy these ppl can be, i nv realli said it to their faces.
bt now, i think im getting so so so sick of these outcast ppl of their behavior.

its like, its precisely that they are unlikable thats why something inside me is always telling me " go talk to him! but dont show that u definitely have more friends than him."
and then as days go by and because i talk to them like a good friend and approach them, i guess they start to feel high and mighty and behave like they are some high profile person thats so likable by everyone and talks with that " i m more popular than u" attitude.
urggh.
so sick!

i realli feel like screaming right into their faces "hey! dont behave high and mighty. Who do u think u are huh?if i dont talk to u do u think u can have friends like u have now?u poopoo!"
bt till now i havent done it before luh.
hahah.

i have this urge of telling the truth to them. i guess they didnt knoe that they are nt well-liked .
i have faced two such people. maybe more if i think carefully.

and sometimes i wonder, whats the point of approaching them and talking to them when they will nv understand my kind intentions and then as days go by , they change and behave like some popular kid when they are nt?

hais.
words cant exactly explain how im feeling now.
u may think im bragging bt im just stating as a matter-of-fact-ly :)

I love you.